So today, I get an email inquiring about when I would like "meals" to start. Do I want them to be delivered while I'm in the hospital or after I get home? Does my family have any allergies to certain foods? Are there any foods we don't care for? "Just let us know so we can bless your family."
While I am so incredibly grateful that anyone would be willing to prepare a meal to nourish my family in our time of need . . . I don't want to be in NEED of meals for my family. If you only knew how many meals have been brought to our home in the last several years. It's simply astounding! Astounding in two ways. First, in the amazing number of others willing to be used of the Lord to bless our family. And second, in the shocking number of times this need has been so very real for our family. When will it be that I get to bless someone and TAKE them a meal? I long to do that. I long to be healthy enough that the Lord would call upon me for that privilege. I long to be free of any health concerns. Can't I just "grow old gracefully" with no more parts removed? For most, this isn't is a huge request, but for me, it seems almost insurmountable.
Just so as to not be misunderstood, I AM GRATEFUL. I am most appreciative for the incredible kindness of others to my family. I stand in awe at how the Lord works to orchestrate such beauty in the midst of shattered circumstances. However, please try to understand the ache of this mama's heart . . .
I want to be the one who prepares the meals for my family.
I want to be the one who cleans my house.
I want to be the one who does the marketing.
I want to be the one who teaches my children.
I want to be the one who comforts their hearts.
I want to be the one who delivers my son to his part-time job.
I want to be the one who takes pictures of my boys at their basketball games.
I want to be the one who bakes Christmas cookies after Christmas with her girlies.
I want to be the one who my blessings "need".
I want to be the one who God chooses for them . . . for all of their days.
to finish off the day. - Running and rocks, giant hills and holes, sand and sea, and wind and waves. What a wonderful day we had. To top it all o...
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